Wednesday, 25th February 2026
I found out that I quite enjoy going to the gym, it feels kinda homy to me, everytime when I feel angry, distressed, or sad, going to gym helps me to recover from my bad emotions. And even if I am in a good mood, going to gym also helps me to feel better.
Anyways, tonight I went to the gym because I am at a bad mood, and the reason why I am at a bad mood is because:
- I did not sleep well as some random person called the wrong number, and called me 3 times this AM to wake me up!
- Not a very productive day at work, spent a lot of time scrolling and browsing, not much work done.
- My mom shares that she has just started buying stocks (she invested 100% into one random stock she knows nothing about and asked me to teach her how to make money on stock market while I am literally losing money as well.). I think her ignorance is gonna make her lose a lot of money -- she has a history of being scammed ~140k USD.
- One of my 2026's resolutions is to find a girlfriend this year, but I don't know if it is I am trying to hard or what, I constantly feel the relationship I am trying to build with other people is not stably building up, it feels more like walking on a icy uphill, one mistake can take you all the way back where it started, or even worse.
Anyways, hit the gym tonight, did leg pressing, feels good, gonna do a bit of work, let's get better and do it again tomorrow.
I don’t believe healing is a function of time. The popular metaphor--“hold a dyed cup under running water and it will clear over time”--suggests that time itself is the cure. But time doesn’t heal us; it only changes the environment in which we keep living.
We can live the same week 52 times a year and call it “time passing.” Or we can use time deliberately: read, learn, move our bodies, go into nature, meet people, challenge assumptions, and reflect - how we turn raw experience into meaning.
To me, healing is not dilution. It’s digestion. It’s the work of breaking down what happened, extracting meaning, discarding what harms, and rebuilding a self I can respect.
Here’s the uncomfortable question I have to face: if I’m still stained, is it because the water isn’t running--or because I’m not scrubbing?